frontier

so close
so close before death
this body is so feeble
feeble and weak
almost no effort is needed to crush a body
almost no effort is needed to forcefully crush a life
it might just happen in the next second
every breath we take might just be the last
we are frail and fragile
just a tiny effort to end life
always walking close to the endless chasm of death
just a strong breeze might be enough for us to stumble into the nothingness
does it change anything?
if one dies or not?
or does it even change anything if one is born?
moving forms made up of the cosmical energy
does it matter which form we take?
it is just the cosmical energy spreading freely
and of the endless possible forms
we are just one possibility
it is nothing special
it is just by chance
the gestalt we have does not matter
but does it even matter if it exists at all?
why?
why?
why?
WHY WHY WHY???
what makes existing better than not existing?
what?
either there is something or there is nothing
if there is something it must have a form
some form
any form
it does not matter
it is there so it exists
but it is just one possibility
why is one possibility better than any other?
why should there be something that is "better" in the first place?
what makes it "better"?
what makes it more meaningful?
isn't meaning just a concept created by the cosmic spirit?
but the cosmic spirit is just one of the endless possibilities
yet it denies its own true fate
we are or we are not
in the end it does not matter
it is just as it is